A Global Pandemic

Dear Diary,

Here we are. Stuck at home. Nights out cancelled. Millions of people dying. It is a historical time to live in. I would have thought my anxieties would skyrocket during a time of crisis. But I am completely calm.

I used to be extremely extroverted in my early and late twenties. Always had to be out on the town at my favourite bar or out to dinner or out dancing. The last three years of my life I have changed. I like spending my nights in reading. I like spending quality time with my family and my partner. I find myself in self isolation with the man I love and I couldn’t be happier. I do miss work. I am working for the company I have always wanted to be at in a field that makes me happy. But this time to focus on myself. To read and to see if I can get back into shape. This time to focus on my relationship and really feel at home in my condo has been eye opening.

I love the simple life. No big parties. No fancy resteraunts or bars. Just me and Leith at home on the couch talking and reading and watching netflix. We have been taking long walks together and biking together. I feel this time at home has brought us so much closer. There was never anything wrong with our relationship but I can feel our closeness even more no. He’s my best friend and he takes care of me and I him.

I may be calm but I am scared. Scared of getting this virus and spreading it to the people I love. Scared of how long we will all be out of work. Scared that I won’t see my family for a long time. Scared of what being at home not able to do anything will do to my mental health.

So here diary are my wishes for this uncertain times. May I take time to listen to my heart and my head. May I take time to read, to exercise, to meditate, to dance. May I take time to think of the people who are sick or who were lost. May we all stay home and keep our loved ones safe. May I take this time to listen.

Stay Safe,

Vanessa xoxo

New Year’s Resolutions… In February

Dear Reader,

I’m late to catch the train. I was in a bit of a funk in January and I’ve been trying to pull out of it. I want to read more… Which I have I’m on book 8 of the year already! 6 read in January #goals. But I want to keep ontop of the house keeping and also write more on my blogs, work on my novel and get more time in at the gym.

I found a coach on instagram who is very inspirational to watch and listen too. She kills it everyday working out and doing positive affirmations. She works and paints and does all the things that make a life fulfilling. My goal is to get back into the groove.

Also, I am so blessed to live in the condo of my dreams with my favourite person in the world and to be working at Indigo. It has always been a dream of mine to work in a bookstore. And I work in a beautiful bookstore with lifestyle products that reflect what I see as living an awesome goal filled life.

So off to finish my book F*ck Feelings. Hopefully I will finish it tonight so I can start my next book on the list Carpe Diem.

Have a great night!

Love always,

V xoxo

Re-Newed Energy

Dear Reader,

With August ended I feel a re-newed energy. The days have grown cooler and the sun sets faster. However I am energized. Like a flower blooming in spring time. I feel like I am finally grounded and doing the things I love.

Things that I love:

1. My relationship with my family and significant other

2. My workplace and my fellow coworkers

3. My beautiful magazine worthy condo

4. My state of mind

5. My blogs

These are things in my life that make me feel happy. It’s been a while since I truly felt at peace with myself and my state of being. I urge you reader to find your passions and the things you are grateful for. We always find excuses for not doing the things we want to be doing in life. I no longer have any excuses. I write, I walk, I meditate, I read, I work hard. That’s it. It’s a state of mind and a state of being that I hope to continue cultivating.

Lot’s of Love,

V šŸ˜€

31 and Beyond

Dear V,

You are 31 now and into the next phase of your life. You are realizing the things that truly matter to you and are taking the time to make the necessary changes that will ultimately lead you on a new path.

Living on your own for a year has taught you how to care for yourself, how to nourish yourself and how to be at peace with your mind. I am proud of you for all the positive changes you have made in your life. You are becoming the woman you always envisioned yourself being.

The things that you make time for:

Family

Meditation

Reading

Blogging

Box Breathing

Biking

Walking

Nature

Nutrition

There are so many things you have incorparated into your lifestyle that bring happiness and joy into each moment of your life.

Remember that living your best life means doing the things that bring you peace of mind, relaxation but also challenge you and push you forward.

You are doing a great job. Keep up the momentum!

Lots of Love,

V xoxo

 

What Dreams Are Made Of

Dear Reader,

It’s the long weekend and I have planned to spend it working on myself. This entails reading more, meditating, spending time with my significant other and writing about what I want and need to better my life.

Journaling is something I want to start again. I have three different journals I want to begin. One on my journey through my new nutritional lifestyle I have created after consulting with a wonderful dietician (Linda Stein). One on my mental health and self care practices. And one on my love life and poetry. Journaling has always helped me to work through issues and channel my creative energy.

I also want to start a self help blog. One that centers around women’s issues, plus continue using this blog as an outlet for my thoughts.

As I grow older (I’m 31 now) I have found a new found confidence in myself. I live with my boyfriend in a beautiful condo building. I have a great job at a countertop manufacturing company. I’m surrounded by flowers and beauty in my home. I have cultivated a great relationship with my family and have so much more to be thankful for.

This journey through my thirties and beyond is exciting for me. The person I am becoming and living as everyday is in line with the vision I have always had of myself. I don’t know exactly when that vision came to fruition but it has and everyday I live out my dreams.

I wish this for you reader. To become the person you know you are.

Lots of Love,

V ā¤

That Little Voice

Dear Reader,

You know that little voice inside your head? Mine has been on overdrive. It has been urging me to use my creative abilities. Telling me to write that book and post on my blog. Telling me to read more and learn more.

I am always searching for ways to better myself and live in this world. Self-care is important to me and part of self care is accomplishing the goals you set for yourself. I am lucky to have such a great support network. My family, my loving boyfriend and close girlfriends all know how to encourage me and keep me grounded.

So what I want you to do tonight is grab a pen and paper and listen to that little voice in your head that tells you your dreams. The one that reminds you of what you have yet to accomplish. Don’t see it as a negative but at as a chance to explore your life’s purpose.

Love,

V

A Letter to Myself: Moving Forward

Dear V,

You have made alot of positive changes in your life. I admire the will power and motivation you have been displaying. This past month you have really been showing up to your life to make the changes needed.

You haven’t felt this good or motivated in a while and it feels like a breath of fresh air. Sometimes it’s hard to push yourself to exercise, to eat right, to show up for your life. And that was your goal to show up and make changes.

31. There it is. A year older and so much gratitude to the universe for helping you come this far. V, you did it. You entered the next phase of your life on the right foot. Keep at it.

I’m cheering you on.

Lots of Love,

VšŸ’–

A Letter to Myself: Face your truth or your truth will be put back in your face. #Mircales Now

Dear V,

You always find yourself reading self help books hoping to shift into a different state of being. Reading is good, you are learning alot. The part where you are lacking is in applying what you learn. Creating a new habit takes dedication and self control. When you really want something you don’t have a problem with these two things. But you want something greater for yourself. You always have. I think the problem is your actions are rooted in fear. You are afraid of failure, afraid of what other people think of you. These thought patterns will hold you back. Once you have pinpointed the patterns though, you will be able to work past them to become the best version of yourself.

You have come a long way from the person you once were. All the things you wanted are manifesting in your life and you say thank you to the universe everyday that things are working out. And you can’t help but feel like your Nonna has something to do with it all. You found yourself asking for her guidance. She is your angel and your voice of reason. She is your biggest supporter.

V, you are to hard on yourself. You can cut yourself some slack. Life is a roller coaster of emotions and you always seem to be on the high end of the ride. When you learn to calm these fluctuations down you will be able to focus your energy on real change.Ā  You are good person at your core. It may be narcissitic to point that out but you feel it. Kindness has always been your motto and when you don’t live up to it, you feel sick in your core.

Stay true to your truth.Ā  “Face your truth or your truth will be put back in your face.” Gabrielle Bernstein, Miracles Now.

Lots of Love,

V ā¤

 

Just Show Up

Dear Reader,

I’m currently reading the book Miracles Now by Gabrielle Bernstein. Tool # 39 is Just Show Up. That’s what I’ve done today. Show up online on this blog to do what I love and it is what I want you to do today, this week or this month.

Bernstien says ninety percent of the practice of creating new habits is just showing up. We all have goals we want to meet. Whether it be to go to the gym, read more, travel more, make more time for friends and hobbies. If you never make the time to show up for these things then you are sure to stagnate.

I confess I haven’t been to the gym in three months. And when I think about it, it makes me feel crappy. Especially since I moved into a new condo which has a gym for me to use right at home (and a pool).

So I challenge myself in the coming weeks to just show up. Get to the gym, open my computer, buy that book and show up to do the things I keep telling myself are important to me.

Lots of Love,

V ā¤